The Jiraya Syndrome
Now that I've gotten pretty far in life ( well at least much farther
than I had ever expected to get ) I feel the need to question some of my
past thoughts and behaviours.
For example, I, like most other males (and females for that matter) have craved for a partner who is good-looking and intelligent. But over the last one month I have been focusing a lot on my research and work for the sake of becoming a reasonably well-known person in my field. (My desire to be well-known is not for the sake of Fame but to be in contact smart people and learn from them.)
At this point of time I question my past desires with the following: Is the purpose of my life to woo a lady and live a happily ever after with her ? This question has been long coming since I have tried in many countless occasions ( actually 5 or 6 to be precise ) to impress females in the hopes that one day they might end up going out with me. I have failed miserably all the times. It seems I do not have the ability to be smooth and say the right things at the right time. This is mostly because I end up saying whatever comes to my mind and for that matter I would prefer being honest and let the person themselves decide whether they would want to be with someone like me not. (What is the point of being Or pretending to be someone else ? it's all a farce and we already have too many masks on.)
In such a situation I think about Jiraya who also said the same thing. In fact my question above was posed originally by Jiraya. The more I think about, the more I understand that perhaps I am a lone wanderer who just wants to see the world and understand it (all of it). I am perhaps the person who is destined never to have the comfort of a female companion and I'm okay with that some reason, because I see that there are many many things that I can do. And perhaps some day I might find my true calling which might elicit a response like: Aha!
What I can do right now is keep studying and working harder than ever before without looking to my left or my right and get distracted. And I have to be honest no matter what. It is after all the proverbial good policy.
Anyways this is just a random mumbling and I would suggest you not to take this too seriously.I shall just wait for the coin to land on the edge. Who knows perhaps something interesting this way comes ?
For example, I, like most other males (and females for that matter) have craved for a partner who is good-looking and intelligent. But over the last one month I have been focusing a lot on my research and work for the sake of becoming a reasonably well-known person in my field. (My desire to be well-known is not for the sake of Fame but to be in contact smart people and learn from them.)
At this point of time I question my past desires with the following: Is the purpose of my life to woo a lady and live a happily ever after with her ? This question has been long coming since I have tried in many countless occasions ( actually 5 or 6 to be precise ) to impress females in the hopes that one day they might end up going out with me. I have failed miserably all the times. It seems I do not have the ability to be smooth and say the right things at the right time. This is mostly because I end up saying whatever comes to my mind and for that matter I would prefer being honest and let the person themselves decide whether they would want to be with someone like me not. (What is the point of being Or pretending to be someone else ? it's all a farce and we already have too many masks on.)
In such a situation I think about Jiraya who also said the same thing. In fact my question above was posed originally by Jiraya. The more I think about, the more I understand that perhaps I am a lone wanderer who just wants to see the world and understand it (all of it). I am perhaps the person who is destined never to have the comfort of a female companion and I'm okay with that some reason, because I see that there are many many things that I can do. And perhaps some day I might find my true calling which might elicit a response like: Aha!
What I can do right now is keep studying and working harder than ever before without looking to my left or my right and get distracted. And I have to be honest no matter what. It is after all the proverbial good policy.
Anyways this is just a random mumbling and I would suggest you not to take this too seriously.I shall just wait for the coin to land on the edge. Who knows perhaps something interesting this way comes ?
posted by Raj Dabre @ 08:16
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